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From the fear that Trusting You will leave me more destitute, Deliver me Jesus






I'm following Annie Deddens on Instagram, she’s a beautiful soul, she and her husband runs the praymorenovenas.com and is a very huge help in my spirituality, I came across her because she’s one of the devotional writers of blessed is she.


She’s one of the many vessels God has been graciously pouring me. Yesterday, I checked her IG story (I almost always check her IG story because it feeds my soul), and saw this.





I’ve come to see that not believing in coincidence is in itself grace, so I pondered on it, conversed with Him and thought, well I'm not afraid of anything.


But the Lord, who is ever loving, whispered, “so there's none Nats?” When He asks, it’s almost always painful, because He asks our truth: and truth does sting.


“For your Father knows what your needs may be, even before you ask Him” (Matthew 6:8). I‘m reminded of this, and I’m like, I know You know very well, but why until now, I just cannot see the light? I’ve been bold enough to ask, prayed novenas and now what, I thought You knew, I know I’m loved by You but this, until when, I’ve been praying and hoping for You to resurrect me in this.


Truth is I’m afraid, is He really who He says He is? That's my cry, I’ve been trying to conceal to Jesus how I feel. He says, this facade that you are trying to show, unveil it with your truth.


Then I remembered something related to this matter, I re-opened and scanned my book, and this is what Jesus told St. Faustina, “Nevertheless, I am very pleased that you confide your fears to Me, My daughter: Speak to Me about everything in a completely simple and human way; by this you will give Me great joy. I understand you because I am God-Man. This simple language of your heart is more pleasing to Me than the hymns composed in My honor. Know, My daughter, that the simpler your speech is, the more you attract Me to yourself. And now, be at peace close to My Heart.” The Diary of St. Faustina Notebook 2 #797

He who is my God only asks me to be truthful with Him, see how He longs intimacy?


Yesterday I saw this picture and it gave me hope.


His generosity does not end there, He re-affirmed it in today's Gospel, “Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; the one who seeks finds; and to the one who knocks, the door will be opened. “Which of you, if your son asks for bread, will give him a stone? Or if he asks for a fish, will give him a snake? If you, then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give good gifts to those who ask him! So in everything, do to others what you would have them do to you, for this sums up the Law and the Prophets (Matthew 7:7-12).



Alas! I got the message Lord, I will always persevere to seek, knock and ask You, for “no good thing will He withhold” Psalm 84:11, from me.


Truly, no one can hide from God, He knows us very well, when I had this conversion and deep relationship with Him of-course by His grace, I don’t trust myself any longer, that I should never rely on myself but Him-in itself grace.


For without grace, I cannot, I will drift and surely be lost. Who among you, are like me? It‘s really a shame, me who is experiencing His presence, mercy and love still doubts.



Jesus told her that what hurts Him most is the lack of trust of souls, "My Heart is sorrowful, Jesus said, because even chosen souls do not understand the greatness of My mercy. Their relationship [with Me] is, in certain ways, imbued with mistrust. Oh, how much that wounds My Heart, Remember My Passion, and if you do not believe My words, at least believe My wounds."- The diary of St. Faustina Notebook 1 #379.


The word TRUST is easier said than done. When I read that part on the Diary of St. Faustina, I wept of how I'm offending my God-who laid it all for me and still not believe.


But God always pulls me whenever I'm drifting. I love it when He does that, pulling me, always claiming me, MINE!



I’ll share with you this prayer, The Litany of Trust, by Sr. Faustina of the Sisters of Life.




What are you afraid of? Ponder and take it to prayer, and ask for Gods grace for you to see where you’re at and may you have the strength to accept your truth and have the grace of courage to place it under His care and to trust His goodness.



From the fear that trusting You, will leave me more destitute, deliver me JESUS.


JESUS, I TRUST IN YOU.



P.S. some of the photos not mine


If it brought you good fruit, please share as it may potentially (hopefully) bring good fruit to some. If not please kindly send me an email correcting my fault, please let us walk hand in hand in this narrow road ahead of us.


May Christ the King reign in our Hearts❤️



Shalom















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