“Finding solace in my solitude”, I’ve read this many times. Life surprised me that I’ll be one of those people throwing off that line. People seems to be upset of my singleness, it’s funny how singlehood seems like a disease nowadays. They claimed me to be picky, they have their own theory.
God has been my teacher, He taught me to love Him first. If God did not put me into this season, I could have listened to those lies and will then again compromise. I learned how God is so amazing that He changed me to the woman He had in mind when He made me. And the most wonderful part is , He’s not yet done with me. So with all my will, submitting it to His decrees, that I may move by His grace . I cannot wait to see what He has in store for me. I am thrilled and a little bit giggly because surely again it will always be beyond me.
On the process, I have come to know “Nathalie”. I found LIGHT in Him. Clear as the day it showed me that even “I” who claims to love myself, wasn’t able to accept the wholeness of me, there were parts of me that I am ashamed of. THE LIGHT scattered my darkness. I could have fallen in disgrace but The LIGHT says to me otherwise. The LIGHT clothed me with love, a love so pure and strong.
That LIGHT taught me not to neglect my dignity. By that, I knew exactly what I want and I cannot compromise anymore. It’s as if I’m rooted on a rock , not allowing me to move along with what the majority are doing nowadays. I’ve been given so many unsolicited advice . The thing is, they don’t understand that I am not attracted to the fashion of being into a relationship just for the sake of “having one”.
But before asking for such a man, I myself , must be the kind of woman that of man has been praying for as well. I cannot just sit while praying for a good and spiritual man, that is not fair! It’s hard to ask God for something we’re not. I, too should be an answered prayer, I will be delighted to hear this line from the man I will spend the rest of my life “you’re the one Ive been praying for”.
This moment of barrenness for some was when I‘ve got the best treasure there is. I have come to know that I am infinitely loved, my relationship with God blossomed that brought joy in me and are seen by many. Singleness then is not a disease but a blessing.
I am forever grateful for He preserved me. In loving Him first, I’ve come to know my identity that I am His beloved, I am deeply loved, known and seen. I don’t need someone to complete me rather someone who will walk alongside with me to heaven.
Ladies, may we not compromise. I get it, you might be pressured but please don’t. May we look for the most important aspect of a man, and that is having a good relationship with God and fears Him. I know having one is hard and rare however may we remember that nothing is impossible with God. Though rare they still do exist.
To my future spouse, God both heard our cry. In His perfect time as cliché as it may sound our “whys” and “hows” won’t be remembered, ours then will be, “now I understand”.
To all my girlfriends who long for their Valentine, may we look at our Blessed Mother and pray for Gods grace that we may imitate Her, keeping all this long season of waiting in our hearts. Pray earnestly and unceasingly because our Father is the best Dad there is.
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